Hello sweet friends
I wonder if you're still there? .....
I don't know what to write, where to start .....
Here goes ..... I've been absent for almost four months
I never thought it would be that long
It's been a tricky time to say the least
Family~wise there has been an awful lot to cope with
I've been suffering with depression and anxiety
(still am I guess)
I wasn't going to say .....
but I feel that it's a v.important subject to be honest and open about.
I'm feeling much much better than I was
it's been a BIG battle
such dark and lonely times have passed
I'll not be defeated though.
I still have bad days
but I also get good days which is a wonderful feeling
getting little glimpses of the old me
the me who was fun and funny, excited and inspired
I enjoy those good days and try to ride the storm when the bad days fill my soul
(not always easy)
I still feel pretty exhausted
and my memory is shocking!
I hope it all comes back soon.
I didn't sew for about three months ..... not a stitch
I couldn't even come into my sewing room
Isn't that strange?
I just couldn't bear the thought.
I'm back in here now though
and have an exciting new venture to think about
one which has got me back into it
I'll share with you soon
it's thanks to one very glorious lil' lady
My hands have not been idle though
I've been knitting knitting knitting
it's my therapy
I'll share them with you soon.
Mabel has grown SO much
and although she is a very naughty little tinker
and has trashed the sitting room carpet
plus most other things that I treasure
she is pretty adorable, luckily for her!
soft as velvet
She gets me out for a walk every day ..... come rain or shine
I don't always want to go to be honest but it's good for me
and tires her out so that I can have a little puppy free time.
This morning we saw our very first bluebell
I've just started posting a few pics on Instagram
I've changed my name on there to @sewsweetviolet
it's a little easier than blogging for me right now
but I'll not abandon my blog
just not sure how often I'll be here
It could be a little sporadic
I just don't want to put pressure on myself.
Before I go I wanted to thank each and every one of you
who sent me the most wonderfully kind messages and emails
I'm sorry that I may not have always answered them
but they were so kind and uplifting
I have re~read them many times
they always make me teary
and every time they fill me with so much love.
'THANK YOU xxxxx"